I sat down and forced myself to think about you
Even though I haven’t ever breathed you in
Quite so deep before
And the invisible tattoos you traced on my skin
Burn a deep shade of red
Curly letters and hearts
A dragon and a blade
Because those things are kinky
I hate it when you touch me
Still, I let you hold me so close
Too close…
I’m not breathing anymore.

I lay back and force myself to picture you
Tanned boy with golden hair
I knew you weren’t my type
And you’ve never tasted this ral
But you were so god damn beautiful
And what am I?
Lip gloss and black
I think that’s a song you used to hate
And I loved it because the bass made your ears bleed out
So you didn’t have to think
I hate it when you kiss
Still, I slip my tongue in
So it’s real
Too real…
I can’t taste you anymore

I sleep and force myself to dream of you
The holding
The kissing
The hating
The needing
Why can’t I just push you away?
O yeah, I remember
It’s you who tied me down.